With God All Things are Possible

I’ve always seen myself daring and intrepid.  But that was just one side of me. My true self didn't get unveiled. Tears kept running down since the beginning of the 2nd class at the retreat, “Be Bold And Fearless.” God healed my fright on authorities and revealed the reasons behind it—insecurity and lovelessness. They have been rooted since my childhood.

Testimony: With God All Things are Possible

I can do all things through Him who gives me strength. (Philippians 4:13)

I’ve never attended such a wholesome retreat.  I still feel the anointing power healing and restoring my soul, body and mind up until now.  This is the blessing He has prepared for us and deemed to happen.

I knew this retreat would be a feast for everyone when I prayed for it before it had began.  But the Lord is far beyond our desires and expectations.  The feast has become like a living water, overflowing and never ceasing.

I’ve always seen myself daring and intrepid because I trusted my Lord.  But that was just one side of me.  My true self didn't get unveiled.  Tears kept running down since the beginning of the 2nd class at the retreat, “ Be Bold And Fearless.”  God healed my fright on authorities and revealed the reasons behind it—insecurity and lovelessness.  They have been rooted since my childhood.  Every long-forgotten incident rewinded before my eyes once more.  The hurts I suffered, either from families or others have molded me to run away from reality and hid myself from conflicts.  My fragile mentality came from the powerlessness to take up challenges from the surroundings to make them better.  My home, supposedly my solely safe haven to provide love and support, became my greatest source of helplessness and hopelessness.

But God told me that I was able to change all these. “I can do all things through Him who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:13).

Thanks be to the loving God who has waited for me for years.  The strongholds took years to build and I still have a long way to go to change my mindset completely.  But I believe, by breaking out of the bondage, my yokes have been lightened.  I’ll be able to follow His footsteps more firmly and closely.  His amazing power has enlightened me on how to take back and submit my mindset under the name of our Lord Jesus.  Our enemies are forever on the losing ground.  There will soon be a brand new me.

I have always known there was this insatiable desire of happiness in my heart.  I could rejoice in the Lord, but not always.  There seemed to be an invisible wall blocking me from full content.  When the prayer session of the class, “From Broken to Perfection” began, I started to understand the source of problem that influenced me tremendously was the hatred, despair and bitterness I saw my mother endured from my father’s irresponsibility.  

All these negative emotions and ungodly attachments have already taken place when I was in my mother’s womb.  I was the youngest and my mom hoped for a boy.  My birth brought her disappointment for I couldn't contribute much to the family like boys.  She has long been despised by the family members because her marriage to my father didn't work well.  Ending her life seemed to be the only answer.  But she worried about what would have happened to her five children if she was not around.  She was torn by the dilemma.  When I recalled the days I lived with her, those dramatic entanglements of life till the death of my father kept appearing. Even after he died, my mother’s emotions were still disturbed and my sorrows lingered. 

Thanks be to our good shepherd, Jesus, who worked me and my mother several years ago. And His healing once again came upon me at this redemption retreat.  After the retreat, the divine power kept on healing to relieve and renew me while I spent time with the Lord in prayers and His words for over a week.  I was finally able to break apart the ungodly emotional attachments to my parents and enter into the fullness of joy God has destined for me.

Our God is an awesome God full of mercy and grace.  I can't imagine how droughty and wearisome our life will be without the presence of Our Lord Jesus.  He surely deserves all the glories.  Amen!

張雯慧  May 2015 

This is Chang’s testimony after she attended the “Wholesome Redemption Retreat” sponsored by the Promised Land Ministries on April 24-25, 2015.